54 & counting

54 Days until the baby is due! It's an incomprehensible thought that Brad and I will be responsible for such a vulnerable little thing. I've had a reoccurring dream that I had twins and for some reason I keep forgetting about one of them. In my dream I won't notice for hours on end that I left him somewhere unattended and then I'll panic and scramble to find him. I'm sure every new parent has these insecurities that I can still only partly relate to. Of course you hope your going to be the best parent, the most understanding that ever existed. All the while teaching them the things you think are necessary for them to be a well adjusted, balanced adult. It's all perspective.....I vividly remember pledging to my Mom that when I grow up I'd buy my kids all the "junk cereal" as she called it, that they could handle. To me that was a good parent, so I wonder what other things I'll look back on in 15 years and shake my head at. My friend Amy told me something once that I always think about when I start to feel overwhelmed. She said there are three people helping her raise her kids; her husband, herself, and Heavenly Father. It reminds me to keep things in perspective and look forward to the lighthearted side of parenting.